It’s been years since I decided to blog. It’s been two years since I literally wrote it down as a goal. I have attempted multiple blogs. My posts come and go. Then I decided to jump at it and bought a site last month.
If you think that would inspire me to do better, you’re not alone. Me too. It thought it would. But it did not. I spent weeks planning for the perfect post, perfect blog design, and perfect time to do it.
I wrote blog posts saved in my computer, but I did not publish them. They seem to lack this or that. I don’t have the right picture, I’m not yet the person I think is credible to write such thing. The bottom line is that I think I’m not enough and so the work I do is not enough.
But there comes a point when you get tired of all your excuses. I have exhausted all my procrastination options. Even what motivates me before bores me now. I think it’s time.
This goes for us who feels stuck and paralyzed in fear. You are not alone.
If you look for excuses, you will find them in a snap. They made sure they are easy to find.
It is your gleaming screen screaming for attention and get this, they have the whole world to offer in just a swipe.
It is the perfectionist being inside your head wanting only the best because it is ignorant to the fact that any beginner makes a crappy start.
It is the past arguing that it holds the truth: you have become a failure with so many stumbles and that the glorious days are all behind.
It is the future making you nervous by shouting: “Hey! Look at me! I’m all foggy and deep. Can you handle me?” It whispers, “What if” followed by “it doesn’t work?”
It is the perceived opinion of people around you. It is the imagined questions of these people asking, “Who do you think you are?”
It is the highlights you see on your newsfeed and the “friend” who thinks you should force yourself to love the job that slowly kills you.
It is the times you gave up on a cupcake thinking it defines how you handle your plans.
It is the comforting thought that you can hack your way through impulse buying and attention-based traveling. It is convincing yourself that a taste of the ideal life would be good enough.
It doesn’t warn you that once you’re buried in debt, your excuses have multiplied by making you work double shifts – your plans went to the backburner.
It is the inflated ego telling you that other people can go work hard but you are blessed with talent and you can work at it when you feel like it.
It is going lazy and thinking you’re the king of the world.
Excuses are everywhere and they will always be there.
They are endless and they can kill your dreams. They will make you miserable if you give them your full attention.
But my friend, they are just excuses – you make them up in your head and you can make them disappear too. I write this to you as much as I write this to myself.
It’s time to make that leap.
It is time to minimize the screen time and remove the distractions.
It is time to lovingly ask the perfectionist in you to keep quiet while you’re beginning to work. You can consult her for finishing touches, but she does not decide when to bring yourself or your work out there. You thank her for the concern but assure her that you are enough.
It’s time for the proper goodbye to the past that no longer brings value to your present. It’s time to realize that we are all ever-changing beings and that your past self can be references for lessons but not dictionaries to define who you are.
It’s time to shout back to the future, “I’m ready! I can jump and I have all the gears!” It’s time to silently whisper, “It’s time to be alive.”
It’s time to write down the shortlist of people whose opinion you should take to heart. It’s time to train yourself with the thought that people are generally doing the best they can with the tools and training that are handed to them. It’s time to realize that although you cannot make a big deal out of everything, it is also kind to say “Stop” when boundaries are crossed.
It’s time to say that you are a person who rightfully deserves love especially from yourself.
It’s time to unfollow people who are currently not adding value to your life. It’s time to realize the difference between a true and a fraud friend and knowing who should take up space in your life.
It’s time to realize that opinions are purely subjective and to ask questions before accepting them.
It’s time to treat yourself occasionally and enjoy the simple pleasure of the moment.
It’s time to know that the best things take time and patience trains you to be a better human being. Years of waiting will not bring you regret if you use it to become a better version of yourself.
It’s time to anticipate the big things with a reasonable timeline and make the anticipation brings you joy by itself.
It’s time to wake up, show up, and do the work because the interest is compounding, and talent alone just doesn’t make the cut.
It’s time to be uncomfortable and train yourself with hard work. It’s time to put yourself out there.
No one said it will be easy, but I heard so many people say it’s all worth it.
It’s time to be the person you have always wanted to be.
It’s time. My dear friend, take the…